lost..

indeh is sad...

i noe..

pretty often recently ya?

i dno why i keep thinking about the world outside instead of focusing on doing well..i've got exams in 25 days and i'm reli still trying to cope..

i know..bullshit*..i've been here for eight months..

not being to cope?

tat's a lie ain't it..

but somehow the pressure just keeps mounting up and i get lost trying to snap out of it..i'm like this tiny weenie twig that's at the verge of snapping but the weight of the world on me just keeps increasing..

what's worse is that i do not know who to turn to..

i was so depressed earlier and when i reached for my phone, i din know who to call..

everyone has got something to do..

somewhere 2 go...

who am i to put a black patch in their perfect world..?

or maybe i jus need time..need to focus back on what i'm reli searching for..

i'm definetly beginning to lose my inner me..

or maybe i'm just focusin on the wrong direction..

i ceased praying for the past few days..

i dunno why

its not like i lost faith or smtg

i just cant find the connection between Him and what i'm going thru

i'm certain i'm the biggest nag that whines each time i turn to Him..

or maybe i did lose faith*

and i've started to lose words trying to express myself..

i cant even point my emotions straight..

daym..

maybe i'm just a twig whose pressence is still uncertain after all..