Beautiful Awakening :)

FS08A2-200608- AWESOMENESS!!!! :)


okie another day another post..i realise i've been getting too free these days wif too many freq posts ahahx..but am ere to share something a LITTLE SERIOUS..what coming ere has done to me 2 be exact..this were the words i couldnt stop thinking abt this morning wen i ws doing the tracks alone..

who was i??inder. the cracked one,,well i shouldn't say the SHY one cos tat happens very rarely..LOL i love crapping, cudn't care less abt much responsiblities and often dreaming big,,only never to think of a path to fulfill it..
hmmm..sounds dumb?almost what u'll call me b4..i'm 18 now..to some it might mean being legally able to buy a margarita :) or to some its just another leap into maturity..i used 2 think it was crap..i mean c'mon, u can b how ever old u want to be maturity isn't something tat comes with the age..it just wel,,,comes**

but now that i've put a step into uni life, things has definetly changed( for better or worse i dno)..and no i'm not talking about hair loss!! its about my thinking ways and my personal matter of prespective wen looking at things..i've begin not to just look at the surface of a prob but rather have learned to take a deeper look to wht it reli is. almost everything seems just like a door to me..u see the surface,,den the lock = the key to solving it,,and what happens after tat or the future is what lies behind the door..something u can't predict no matter what way u try to unlock it..same as the people around me..i've begin to well let my guard down a lil these days..i've found new friends ( but the old ones are def waaayyyyy kewler!!!!) tat aren't tat stingy as what i expected em to be..the whole class is just so supportive and well everyone kinda respect's u for ur opinion and ur thghts..not like in high school wen some of it just ends up being laughed off. of cos there are a small bunch of clowns(or shall i say onions) tat somehow just cant seem to shut up but hey,,its all part of a whacked batch and no am not complaining xD


owh ya abt complaining,,tat seems to be coming less too!!!somehow i've learned to accept things the way it is and not to question every single thing around..well not acepting everything act i still question tons of stuff but wayyy less den b4..LOL

i've also learned to believe even MORE in Him :) when u're far away from home and the place where u've spent 17 years or ur life, u can't reli count on nyone except Him..thru Him i've learned the diff between a NO and NOT YET..the word NO doesn't exist when u're hoping or waiting for something u've asked from Him..the word NOT YET is what the answer shud be(SMTG I READ IN KAREN'S BLOG) what's best is tat He's this irreplaceable person in life and tat would never leave ur side and somehow accepts you willingly as u are..the best part is tat u don't have to prove anything to Him but rather to confess ur sins and weakness hoping He'll give u the inner strength ..

tats not it..the importance of education has taken anther leap as well..from dreaming of being a drama queen to just bio,chem and crapped out subjs..at times it reli does get frustrating cos the routine just keeps repeating but hey i'm glad enuf i finally found my path to what i've been wanting for..den there are the pep thinking tat medic students are often proud and tat dey look superior..well i know i used 2 have that thght..now that i'm a part of it, i realise how wrong i was..they're just like everyone else..striving to achieve wat dey reli want yet at times most of us here tend to put a fake happy mask to show the world outside..

i've also discoverd many new things ere..my ability to speak in frun of a crowd nearly alien to me and not to run off midway wif hot red flushing ears!!LOL its just so nice to express whatever u feel or think without feeling worried of what the world might laugh at you for..but of cos crapping dsnt reli work ere..u've got 2 make sense to get their attention which shud be the downside i sppse..but who said we don't have fun?!?!GOSH U SHUD SEE THE BIRTHDAY BASHES!!!!den probably you'll un what i mean..i've included some pics from my own birthday just to show u how crazie sometimes we can get :)




part of the crowd of fs


the moist hazel choco cake from secret recipe!!


the cake was def put 2 gud use n_n

the birthday boy n girl!


yup..he was particulary dwoned in ice and coke




RANDOM PICS

Fai2 and Robbie in class..(pic taken by me!!)


Part of the FSO8A1/A2 crew :)


but whatever i am or whoever i may be in the future,,the me within is still a fat kid tat loves choco and ice creams and cheese cakes and tat still thinks BILLIE JOE AND DWAYNE JOHNSON IS HOT!! whatever it may be,,this new chapter or page i'm in has def been a beautiful awakening to me :)