Reason,,Season,,Lifetime...

I’m pissed.

Guess what?i reached home from sp last fri..tawt screw it man I’m bak home!!once again I’ll b wif frens that I’ve known for what?!my whole secondary life!!

Sp is not a screwed up place..though u do have some stuck up people..no matter what the challenges I’ve faced,,I somehow just learned to hold on..finding friends hasn’t been an easy task there though..not everyone lay their heart on their sleeves..everyone can be pretty much stuck up in their own world,,only talking 2 u if u have the lastest bio notes or to check on how much u’ve studied so far..lame?daym that’s the harsh world u face there..

At first it killed me tat aiya why is everyone so diff from the friends I have bak there in ipoh?everyone there were so much more caring and understanding..no on reli pretended to be fake..each time I felt disgusted by some idiotic actions tat somehow disgraces the term ‘friend’ I keep thinking..no inder,,this aren’t all the friends ure gonna find..the true ones are still back home..just have patience till you reach home..

I spend days without even a message from anyone..i kept thinking,,screw it..everyone’s bz u cant demand ur frens time like this..they still do care and think of you..

Dayss…weekkss… it all went by..somehow it was always me tat needed to make the first move if I reli badly needed someone to share my burden with..i’m not a physco loner on campus..def am not..its just that the pep I cared most were still back home though I noe there are some true gems here in aimst covered in dust and dirt..

So here I am. Back in ipoh. Thinking every daym thing wud be okie again. Love would find me again. Guess what?nothing’s change..i reached home on Friday yet the person I awaited most for didn’t seem to think it was important to at least give a call..when all those lonely stuck up days were spent of me thinking daym I’ve got an angel back home,,and now that I’m here, I’m still given the cold treatment?they say,,,,no far doesn’t mean ure forgotten..but I’m human..wen u’re reli low in life you turn to God or your friends to keep reassuring you that they are here for you..that you’re not forgotten and they still care for you no matter how much it seems they’ll never forget you..

Is this reli too much to ask of?just to be thought of once in a while?!?does sending a message takes just too much of ur daym time?!or is it just everyone moving on in search of new people and here I am still struggling to cling to the old ones?!

Or am I just expecting too daym much for you?have I reli put that much of hopes in you that even the slightest disappointment seem like the deepest grave?!or have I just been surrounded by loneliness hoping once i’m back ere everything’ll be the same wen no one else is feeling the same?

At times I tend to think..inder ure crap..shytt u laugh and kid around too much..thats y people tend to forget u’ve got feelings as well..reminds me of the joker in the batman movie..among all the caharacters I think it was his role that gave the meaning to the movie..it tawt us one thing…

When youre alone in life, somehow that’s wen u learn to live life better rather than expecting too much from the people around you. Once you stop expecting, you stop getting hurt.

But these are friends ure talking about!!!!if u don’t expect from them who else are you going to depend on?!everything was going on fine till the distance came in between..

Or maybe some friends just give an impact in ur life and slowly drift away..

The relationship wif friends has always been the one like the web of spiders..so fragile yet so carefully created wif so much of effort and time..if there’s too much of load on it, it’ll be destroyed..yet if there’s nothing holding it 2gether, it wouldn’t stay..

here’s smtg interesting I read of

People come into your life for a REASON, A SEASON or A LIFETIME. When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person.

When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time,this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.

Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn. They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it, it is real. But only for a season.

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons, things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant..

Hmm..guess i just need 2 snap out of this bad phase I’m going thru..loneliness reli messes wif ur mind lolx but I noe I do speak of truth (: what kind of a friend are you?